I’ll be honest — I like guys too early on in the relationship. If they tell me they just want something casual, I try and change their mind. Bonus points if they’re in their 40s. I suppose what I like about men that age is the illusion that they must have a lot going for them if they’re much older than me: they must be very established in their career and know how to treat women very well. The main issue with this way of thinking is that, if they were such “catches,” wouldn’t they be married by now? Of course there are exceptions, like if their spouse passed away at a young age, but most of the time, I can figure out really quickly why these men are single, I just don’t want to admit it. I have goals, like moving out of my grandparents’ house next year and being more independent, and I know that two incomes would make that easier.
When my friend and I accidentally broke my wrist in early May (long story), that complicated my financial plans a bit. Having already been on the EI Ski Team up until then, and not on purpose, I fell into a bit of a depression and gained 10 pounds. I wanted a job, and only having one hand to use in the jobs I had applied to would not allow me to accept those jobs if I had been offered them. Luckily, I hadn’t been offered any of those jobs anyway, so I didn’t have to turn any down… *cries*
With a broken wrist, I can only do jobs that involve typing, which is what I had gone to university for — anything to do with editing or writing. I did clarify this during an EI report and am now eligible to receive Sickness/Medical EI benefits. They never asked me to provide proof that there are certain jobs I can do with a broken wrist so if the government is reading this… please don’t penalize me. You let this happen.
Since my wrist has been broken, I have applied to a couple jobs I can actually do and it felt a little bit like fate when I was asked if I’d be available for interviews for them. I just needed my wrist to break for me to get the job of my dreams. At this point I haven’t officially been offered any of these jobs but I am thinking positively. Plus, there is one interview I am still waiting on.
I remember a psychic telling me that my career can’t flourish if I continue dating men who are awful for me. I suppose it may pay off for me to be single right now, and it’s no coincidence that as things ended with my latest fling, I received another interview request.
At the end of the day, a broken wrist and heart are better than marrying a broken man.